Left Us. After Eight Years, He’s Back And Had Nothing
Eight years ago, with tears in my eye, I held his hand, begged him to stay with me that we will struggle together and succeed, but he refused. He walked away living me pregnant. Now, he’s back without anything.
We were friends from the University, I graduated before him because I was studying a 4years course. The very first time, we tried to take our relationship serious was after my graduation. We had s.e.-x for the very first time and I became pregnant.
The truth is, the guy have always been good to me throughout my stays in school.
I remembered that day he sacrificed his school fees for mine so I could be able to do my final clearance. But when I became pregnant, he walked away after convincing me to keep our baby.
I went through everything all by myself.
Since last year, he has been apologizing on phone, so last week, I asked him to come. He traveled down to my place. Without being afraid of anyone harming him from my family, he believed in me and came. He’s around in my family house, staying in my brother’s room for the past 3days.
He has opened up everything to me, my family members and have apologized.
now, I’m so confused with my life.
He couldn’t graduate, he had problem in school after I left and all this years, he has been struggling, but now he wants to take responsibility and be with us, but he had nothing. No certificate, except diploma which he later did from another school, no job, no place of his own to stay. He had nothing. He wants us to get married and have a family.
I feel I’m about to add more burden to my already stressed life.
The only positive thing here now, is the excitement my son is having seeing his father and the relationship they’re building.
A part of me wants to see this guy have a great life and have direction and not see him live like this, even if I don’t settle down with him. because when I meant him, he was kind, a good person, he had dreams, vision and good plans.
But living us alone all this years, with all his explanations, I’m not contented.
Another part of me is confused, afraid and I feel ishould push him away and let him go back to his life and keep moving with my son because I don’t have the strength to shoulder all these.
Please matured mind in the house, what do you have to say? This is my life and it’s getting more confused.
What would you advise? What should I do?
I don’t want to make more mistakes.
Sorry for my lengthy write-up